rolling spastic stones

promise to blog...

2009-02-28T21:16:00.001+08:00

I, solemnly promise that i will do something abt this blog soon! :P

school's starting soon...yikes!

2009-01-10T20:37:00.002+08:00

i guess i really do blog only when im not in good mood. but i guess it only applies to today as the past week has been a nice one :)
feeling exceptionally emotional today though i still put up a strong happy facade as usual...over dinner i mentioned to my mum a few times that i was fearing the start of a new school year... the new year in njc as 08SH206??!! i dun know, i just crapped out that name...i dun like the feeling of surprises and suspense, especially when i dun know what lies ahead. im afraid.
will this yr be another year of just notes, work, and ultra late nights?! i dun want that..i need my sleep..i need my life..there seems like there's so much to do this yr and so liitle time? CTs...SYF...Prelims...A levels and finally enlistment...holy crap!
can i take this stress? what will happen this yr? what surprises will there be? will i trip and fall or continue to stay on cloud nine? considering that i only managed to scrape pass 2008, i doubt the new year will be this smooth sailing after all..
school starts in less than 36 hours and i soon have to face my fears? anyone has methods to calm my nerves? :(

2009...

2009-01-02T01:20:00.003+08:00

it has almost been a month since i last blogged. plenty has happened in the past month. and now into the new year, have i achieved anything in the past yr. the yr of 2008 tat has come and gone.

it feels like i have only been at njc for a month. the past yr flew by so quickly without me even noticing. come to think of it, lots of happened in 2008 and not only the month of december. 2008 has been a roller coaster year of emotions for me. from the verge of total mental breakdown to cloud nine, what have i not experienced? I thank everyone for all the memories of 2008 that they have given me, regardless of whether they are good or bad. and im truly sorry to those who i have hurted, inflicted harm upon, criticised, back-stabbed, offended, or found me just plain annoying. Now, i shall list all the important events that had taken place the last yr.

the year of 2008...here goes...

January: Orientation in NJ begins. To my surprise, orientation was better than i expected. But i was tortured by the need to wake up freaking early in e morning to get to sch. Traffic jams bothered me for the first time in my life. I never seemed to be able to fit into NJ. then came the O level results, to my surprise i did better than i expected :)

February: It seems that my decision to stay in NJ was a huge mistake. stress started to take its toll on me. family time was sacrificed to complete homework and a variety of activities. Adapting to jc life does not seem to work. Also, i decided to join harmoc. something i never imagined i would. I never seem to regret this decision ever.

March: enrichment week. interesting. but things happened. i never believed i would ever make this mistake. guilt continues to bear down on me. mistakes after mistakes. i started sinking into the darkness...

April: things continued to worsen. I was feeling horrible. No further elaborations seem necessary here.

May: quickly but surely i left for a holiday. i was off to europe. i never knew i would enjoy myself this much. sure it was expensive, but it was money worth it. i love the place. it also gave myself a well-deserved escapade from the doldrums back at home...

June: CTs! Scary! Hard!..totally screwed it...woke me up somehow and make myself work harder. I resolved that sleeping b4 1am seems impossible. weekends seem too precious to be true.

July: Things were finally looking better. I was working hard to brush up on playing the harmoc. My 1st performance at the Esplanade concourse. Octave's the best! or at least the ppl are:)

September: Promos?! they came real quickly! just two months after CTs! started mugging like there was no tmr..mugged harder than Os i think? Though, i think i didnt do as well as i expected, but i think i did my best. Maybe i just got distracted a wee bit=P

October: a month of surprises and excitement! PW was drawing to a close soon and so did OP practices become frequent and rushing of WR! NJ065 will be rmbed forever! i do enjoy the digression we have, though other groups think we are just so darn hiong! haha..=P October 5 was a nice day too. My birthday. Little did i know that so many ppl would rmb my birthday. so many msgs and well wishes...thanks everyone. Cloud nine would be a nice description.

November: Cleared OP and PW at long last. screwed up OP but i shall ignore that. the long holidays begin. and im off to MOE for attachment. it was a worthwhile experience but i thought it could be better. however, im still appreciative of the opportunity:) Class chalet was interesting enough. mahjong seems to be the highlight after all.

December: another exciting month. Harmoc chalet! i guess im starting to know the ppl in harmoc. most importantly, i had a long chat with 2 of the j2s. it was a nice talk. i love honest open and interesting conversations:) and came christmas and the new year. i seem to be moving away from my family day by day. i dun noe..its the thing tat worries me now...

tats it for 2008. a brief recount. so wad does 2009 hold for me? i guess i have to wait and see...

motivation-less

2008-12-05T18:05:00.002+08:00

i know i should finally start on my homework. i have to. but i just cant.
sometimes, everything just distracts you. my heart is not in my academics. i rather do anything but homework. i dun mind even playing my harmoc for the whole day but not homework. i need to be motivated. i need to energy. nope, its not the harmoc chalet tat drained me. i just seem to be tired of everything. haix.

hmm, i wonder whether my hope of leaving singapore will come true. i mean i wont know when i'll ever get enlisted so i guess this will be my last holiday b4 i cant leave the country. they gave me the hope of hong kong...now it has become batam/bintan...so am i leaving the country or not?!...crap!

emo-fied...

worries and more worries

2008-11-26T15:54:00.002+08:00

haix...i think i worry too much...is worrying a disease? if it is i think im terminally ill with AWDS or acute-worrying-dramatically-syndrome. NOPE..DO NOT CONFUSE IT WITH AIDS! haha...i need medication...i need it fast!...:(

sick AGAIN!!

2008-11-24T20:45:00.003+08:00

i saw this quiz thingy on yeun see's blog so i wanted to see how accurate it is. haha...

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. (Really?!..oh my tian!!!) When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. (I DO?!...im surprised!) In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates. (who are you kidding?!...plenty of dates?!...what a joke!)

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

*************************************
Damn it...im down with a freaking sore throat again!...its frigging irritating lar...wad a mood spoiler!

thoughts on 67

2008-11-16T21:34:00.003+08:00

I guess old habits die hard. I always liked taking the bus with my grandparents when I was just a kid. Yes, even though the bus journey from bukit panjang to tampines is one tat causes your butt to grow mushrooms, I still took the long ride on 67. I dun understand why I have this crazy liking to take buses but i think it is my habit to go into deep thoughts when im on a bus that i like. Again, for the unknown number of times in a row, I was into my thinking mode.
Why are humans so complicated? Why are we so inquisitive? If everyone was much simpler, we wouldnt have to guess wads on e minds of other ppl. We wouldnt need to worry abt anything. We wouldnt need to do things to kill our worries. For example, if e US had not thought and start to worry tat Iraq had WMDs, there would not have been a Iraq war. Obama might hence have not won the election.
Why did God make us the superior beings on this planet? Why can't we be like other animals tat hunt down their own food and roam in the wild? If tat was the case we wouldnt be on our way to destroying our own planet. Why are we e only beings to have emotions then? If we didnt have feelings, we would have beeen able to save on lots of unecessary stress. Peace would have been guaranteed. On a smaller scale, even family arguments will be eliminated. Somehow, im starting to think that a world without emotions could possibly be better than one with emotions. Im letting my emotions control my every action. My fears. They grow larger with each passing day. The nights are getting more painful. I need someone to talk to. I need advice. My unaanswered questions balloons while i continuously fail to find the answers to my own questions.

high school musical 3...

2008-11-14T21:41:00.003+08:00

once again im in my reflective mood. today i finally went to watch high school musical 3 with the octavians. yes, the songs were good. so was the dance. BUT there was obviously no storyline at all. its just abt them preparing for prom. however, the movie set me thinking. next year, the same situation will apply to all of us in college. this is different from graduating from secondary school. after 4 years in secondary school, all of us will have to go to our respective polys or jcs. but there is still a high chance that we might end up in the same school and see each other quite often. but after college, things are way different. all the guys will be enlisted into national service while the girls will go on to further their education or step into the working world. there would be those who will leave e country to study overseas and might nvr come back. we will be making the decision tat will affect the rest of our lives forever. i never liked the reality of separation. i took long enough to get over BP. i just cant imagine i have to do it for NJ too. esp the frens tat had accompanied me from BP to NJ. the very nice ppl tat i have established friendships with in NJ. and, most importantly, you. Christmas draws closer. so does the end of 2008. a year has almost passed and gone. time does fly. and my fears looms nearer. mustering enough courage to face my fears is what i must do. i must.

a brief reflection...

2008-11-12T22:34:00.003+08:00

a night to remember? Not really...Somehow the alumuni feast back at the teck whye campus wasnt wad i expected it to be. The excitement of seeing people who u have not seen for a long time seems to have died out. There doesnt seem to be anyone one i look forward to seeing at the gathering..maybe apart from mrs hoe. Apart from the few of my close friends, are the other ppl tat i have established friendships with a mere passing cloud in my life? I need answers. But i doubt i will ever get them.
in the midst of all the chaos of rushing for food, durian and card playing, i have once again seen how many things can change in a short span of 1 year. i just cant understand why certain bpians, esp from a certain class, are able to lose their self image and adopt those of the typical street-loitering ah bengs and ah lians. those 'vibrant' hair colours, sloppy dress codes and hairstyles, what's the point? Why give up your self image for something that does not represent you ppl at all? I despise you ppl. The disgrace of BP. I do not care that i get flamed for this. I want to make my point heard.
on the long walk home from the mrt station, i went into my reflective mode again. with my earphones plugged in, i began wondering where does mrs hoe gets her motivation from. her passion for teaching is simply just indescribable. even with her current medical situation, she is still determined to return to teaching batch after batch of bpians. Why? I guess tats one of the reasons why i want to be a teacher. To understand how some teachers that i know are able to give their all in educating their students. Sometimes i wonder why such unfortunate incidents happen to people who do not deserve it. But i guess we will never understand the path that God has chosen for us, even though it is always the best for us.
then, another incident struck me. I have been too prejudiced against certain people in the whole of this year. i have been too self centered. I have been too quick to judge and jump to conclusions about what certain ppl are like. I concluded upon first impression that certain persons were like unsociable or sorts. I need to do something about this. But what?
pardon me for i am very reflective today. i realise i know very little. i need answers. God or anyone who has them, please provide me the answers to my very puzzling questions.

messed up again...

2008-11-09T21:31:00.002+08:00

hmm...somehow...im feeling a bit messed up all over again...darn...I should start distracting myself with work so that time can pass more quickly...crap...我很乱！我真的真得很乱！我不喜欢这个感受！是我想太多？:(

school term ends...

2008-11-08T10:46:00.005+08:00

OP and PW is FINALLY OVER!....whees...okay...this post kinda lagged by a day...but wadever...

and as PW finally ends...i shall officially say goodbye to NJ065...i cant believe im saying this but i will miss my PW group...amazing eh?!..but then again..after all these are the ppl tat i have sweat it out with for the whole duration of PW...

amazingly, i never tot tat my PW group would ever dun out to work together with such cohesiveness....but i guess things happen when u least expected it...and i wish everyone in NJ065 all the best even after pw...

with the end of our PW journey, it implies tat the sch term has also drawn to a close...and I HAVE SURVIVED 1 YEAR IN FREAKING BORING NJ!...haha...just joking...just like how amazing NJ065 have turned out, it just miraculous to think tat life in NJ is starting to get really really exciting, exhilarating and electrifying for me. I guess you must constantly keep an open mind abt things bah. Optimism seems to be the best policy. HAHA!...and now its time to evaluate the year tat has passed, just like how i did so for the past 2 years. as like the past 2 years, this will be a super long post...so, pardon me. Now, lets split this evaluation into three portions: family, friends and studies.

1) FAMILY. hmm...this yr has been a bad yr for family relationships bah. Somehow, jc life and pw had made me compromise on family time. Considering the pathetic time that i have with my family, schoolwork and cca just seems to shave off more from this small amount of time. Haix. I suppose the only consolation i have was the holiday to europe. I guess its good being the only child, your parents give you all the attention. Haha. So, next year, i solemnly promise that i will spend more time with my family regardless of the hectic schedule tat all NJCians will have nxt yr. :) FAMILY= FATHER AND MOTHER I LOVE YOU!

2) FRIENDS. to be honest, i never tot tat i would ever make such good frens in NJ. but the past 5 months changed everything. or to be more specific the past month was unexpectedly good. HAHA! even ms ling agrees tat im starting to fit into the class compared to the start of the yr. this just seems to validate the idiom: 先苦后甜. HAHA...

08S06: you guys (hmm...although there are more gals anyway...but nvr mind) are just great! rest assured that even though we still have a long way ahead next yr, i believe we can ride out any storm together as a class and we WILL stay united. we will merge to clans(as named by ms ling) into one united S06! hmm, there are a few of you in s06 who deserves special mention...but i think you know who you are lah. Thanks for making my life in NJ an enjoyable one. not to forget, NJ065, you gals too!!
OCTAVE: whees! i nvr tot i would ever be such great frens with ppl in my cca. I will never ever regret joining harmoc even without a music background. for all the 9 of you, i will work harder to ensure tat my harmoc skills are up to standard! i look forward to going out with all of you!
BPIANS: thanks for rmbing my b'day especially those who are not in NJ. I appreciate the birthday wishes and presents yall prepared for me! even though we may no longer see each other as often as we used to...but rest assured yall are the ppl tat i will rmb for the rest of my life. I look forward to more outings with you guys in the holidays and the year ahead. Xinying, thanks for planning the chalet. Though i might not be able to be present, but i think you deserve a big thank you from all those in 4t2! THANKS ALOT!
you-who-knows-who-you-are: hey, you dun noe how thankful i am towards you for making my life in NJ a less grey and dull one. just want to let you know tat i nvr regretted my decision ever and, yes, i will live with all the restrictions. Trust me on this one, okay?...continue smiling :) for that's wad makes you so special...haha...

3) STUDIES. studies for this yr had been quite disappointing as well. i think im not performing up to standard, judging from my Os. but i believe its still me adapting. and YES, i would have to work harder next yr. i should stop being too slack and strive harder for the As next yr. i better work hard to have any hopes of migrating to switzerland!...haha...CBBBD...i will change all you to AAAAA...haha...dream on, silvesta=P

oh and i almost forgot, my spiritual life. Thanks be to god, for answering my prayer i made on my birthday. It was answered but i hope it will have a good future too. HAHA. sorry for i have neglected my spiritual life this year. darn..after catechism classes ended last yr, i seldom go to church now. and the energy audit too...makes me neglect the masses on Sabbath. hmm...i will try my best next yr, i will!...i promise!...God, bless all those for needs your help and may all my family and friends stay safe and healthy for a long time to come. thank you!

happy happy happy...

2008-10-20T19:28:00.003+08:00

do u ever get spooked when u have too much good luck for the whole week?...cos i really getting spooked...haha...not tat i mind the good luck...but everything seems to have been going my way since last saturday...haha...i just cant stop myself from smiling at that thought...haha...and even today meena kaur said my presentation was one the best she has seen so far...although my engagement with the audience is bad...haha...how i wish this luck would last forever...

i enjoy the brief moments we have together...i sincerely hope these times will last forever and ever...

uncertainties...

2008-10-10T22:11:00.000+08:00

uncertainties aplenty...

happy birthday to me....

2008-10-05T18:29:00.002+08:00

today is a very long long time since i made a trip to church. it has truly been a long long time...haiz...i truly aint a good catholic huh?...but today's homily was something tat really hit me..yes there was much difficulty in understanding wad the father was talking abt since he was Vietnamese...
today's homily was on been thankful, grateful and appreciative of wad u have...and it especially touched me on my birthday...cos i realise i havent been very appreciative of my frens around me...within the past 2 days or so...i realise tat i have such nice classmates/schoolmates/harmoc-mates and all my other frens!...not forgetting my family as well...i seem to take things for granted and my greed seems to be insatiable. Even as i continue to enjoy all tat i have, i seem to be unsatisfied...i continue to desire more and more stuff...i guess i need to change my attitude...
here...i take this opportunity to thank all those who rmb my birthday and made it the most memorable one this yr!...thanks everyone!!!

back to sch tmr...

2008-10-02T21:35:00.003+08:00

after a long 1 wk...its finally back to sch tmr...haiz the past wk had been very interesting i suppose with pw and all that work to do...somehow i still tink pw is a waste of all j1s time...pls lar...its HYPOTHETICAL?!...wad the...haha
tmr is games day and i hope it will rly be fun tat is...i hope its not just another of the failed sch events...haha...i had my share of such events at bp...haha and there's harmoc tmr!!...i seriously tink i lost the ability to play a harmoc already...haiz...someone help!!...haha

oh once again...i looked thru the pics we took at teachers day a year ago and i found tat somehow...these frens of mine are just so zilian!...oh my...dun kill me if i post these...but i couldnt resist!...haha

first up....the always "hairy" raymond!check out raymond's expression...i seriously cant believe why he had tat spastic look...

next up...benjamin!...hmm...i dun noe why he allowed me to take this picture...haha...but...its so eww...and check out his standing position in the 2nd picture!...haha

and last but not least...jiajie...hmm...i tink u forgot to shave for this picture...hahahaiz...i miss 4t2 mans...so xinying...jiayous in planning for the class chalet in november...i will be looking forward to it...haha...

and of course..not to forget the 202 guys!

failed shot 1: alvin as usual have been very attention seeking!

hmm...shot 2: much better...but i look very weak in this one...haiz...i shld start eating more!...haha
lastly, all of u in this picture...rest assured i will rmb you all for the rest of my life!...BPGHS'07!

new blogskin...

2008-10-01T15:02:00.004+08:00

ah...finally managed to change the blogskin at long last...been longing to change out from the old one for many many weeks now...haiz...but this was the best looking one i could find...there was actually a nicer one...but the html code was kinda screwed so i settled for this simpler one...it somehow gives me a very calming effect...haha...

ytd was a scary pw marathon for most of the ppl in s06...we totally camped at the macs at KAP for almost 12 hours...wah...we very hardworking right?!...haha

nope...you are not looking at the plugs of some pirated-dvd producing syndicate...it is just 7 laptops from 4 pw groups at macs using only one power point!...haha...very ridiculous right?!...wads more ridiculous is that the staff took at least 6 hours to realise wad we had done?...dumb right?...haha...but after all we were consumers...so they couldnt chase us away after all...haha...okay...shall not talk abt pw anymore cos its totally wasting my bloody life away...

i was looking thru my phone and found a few pics tat was worth posting...haha...

oh wad a sweet sleeping couple at lt 5...haiz...but then again who doesnt sleep in lectures?!...esp when its lt 5?!...haiz...yups...dun doubt it...tats my chem notes...scribbled by the yichieh,"genius",helena and claire...i guess this is my life bah..must be retribution...

hmm...ben and jy at my place playing wii after national day...yes...its a very very long way back...tats a paperweight i got for free...got a bit bored studying for promos...so i took a picture of the paperweight on my Ksp notes...hahalastly....i took this pic of the other estate from my room window...nice right?...tats wad you get from staying in a secluded corner of the country...nice views!!...haha...

yikes!...harmoc resumes on friday!...good or bad?!...i dun noe...its a very complex feeling tat i cannot comprehend...haiz...:(

pw...

2008-09-30T11:00:00.001+08:00

argh...pw is wasting my life away....sianz....

pw pw and more pw

2008-09-28T00:20:00.002+08:00

promo are OVER!...yeahs...but somehow...i dun noe why...i dun have the feeling of great happiness of any sorts...i dun noe lar...maybe its the thought of not being confident of my papers bah...esp maths...i cant seem to like tat subject at all...but nvr mind...enuf of tat...i shall only worry after i get my results...

promos ended on a low note...fell sick immediately after promos...sad right?!...allergy working up again....after so many years? must be the bloody dust in my room...so the first day after promos was simply wasted...haiz....

day 2 was not much better, the day began with a rather depressing PW interview with the NLB personnel...i shall not comment further on that...then, being a nice person like i always am...haha...i went to help eunice,sonia and yunjie with their pw trial...see? im so nice right?!....haha...and i had to carry that crying baby for more than 10 mins okay?!....argh....nightmares mans...and we had a really great scare during the trial...cos yunjie's memorystick got stuck in my laptop...somehow...i tink its my fault...thinking tat it could work...sorry!...but luckily i managed to get it out using eunice's sister's hairpin...haha...wad a relief...the day was just full of ups and downs...but i guess thats how life goes right?...haiz...shall continue later in the morning...tatas for now...

the click five

2008-09-13T21:18:00.002+08:00

oh darn....shldnt have ask for songs by the click five from the 'genius'...cos im so hooked to the tunes....shit lar...it keeps ringing in my head now...haha...

The Click Five
Addicted To Me

I woke you up before
You had the chance to dream
You almost missed the dance
But never skipped a beat

You never could admit
We've had a history
Your friends would throw a fit (a fit, a fit)
So you had to smuggle me

Don't give up
I won't give up on you
I've been loyal without having something to prove
I'm not a killer,
I'm just killing your doubts

Don't you know that
'll be here forever
Even if you leave
And if you look for something better
Soon you'll see
That you're addicted to me

The guilt is all on you
But I'm easier to blame
But I can still relieve
Your ordinary pain

Don't give up
I won't give up on you
I've been loyal without having something to prove
I'm not a killer
I'm just killing your doubts

Don't you know that
I'll be here forever
Even if you leave
And if you look for something better
Soon you'll see
That you're addicted

You can love, you can lust, you can use me
All you want
You can lie, you can trust and confuse me
Baby...

I'll be here forever
Even if you leave
And if you look for something better
Soon you'll see
That you're addicted

I'll be here forever
Even if you leave
And if you look for something better
Soon you'll see
That you're addicted to me
That you're addicted to me
That you're addicted to me
That you're addicted to me
That you're addicted to me
(I'll be here forever)
That you're addicted to me
That you're addicted to me
(I'll be here forever)
That you're addicted to me

DISCLAIMER: im in no way trying to hint anything in this song...i just simply like the catchy tune...haha...plus pls lar...the lyrics sound real shameless and disgusting...haha

still distracted...

2008-09-04T20:11:00.001+08:00

cannot study...cannot concentrate...why do u have to take up so much space in my space-constrained brain?!...darn! :(

3rd yr...

2008-08-31T21:58:00.002+08:00

its been 2yrs...and starting from today this blog will enter its 3rd year...HAPPY BIRTHDAY BLOGGIE!...hmm..i guess im going to start ranting abt how time flies quickly...i was looking thru a few of the blog posts over the 2 yrs and realise so many things have happened...i guess i have matured quite a bit over e yrs( yes...i may still be immature at times alright?!)...this blog seems to record and date every of my up and downs in the past 2 yrs...it all started 2 yrs ago with a certain incident tat happened in class...and tat quickly sparked off a chain reaction...then quickly came my highlights in my life...OBS and CheongShim Academy at Korea...and not forgetting my emotional and 花痴 side...haiz...those were e memories man esp the teachers day celebration last yr...of course it also records e mugging months tat led up to prelims and the Os...those were e no life time frame man...then came along graduation and admission into NJC...and my darkest moments...i never felt worse in the first 6 mths of 2008...i guess its e new environment bah...no more e warmth of bukit panjang and its teachers...but i manage to survive with a few bruises and i believe my holiday in europe did make a great difference...term 3 was definitely much better...harmoc made my life a much more intersting...my ability to laugh like b4 seem to be back in e past few wks...haha...all thxs to e stupid doujiang and youtiao thingy...as the blog goes into its third yr...i hope it wld record my happy moments and no more emo stuff!...whees...

silvesta=P

teachers' day

2008-08-29T22:11:00.006+08:00

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY TO ALL MY TEACHERS!

i was looking forward to today from a very long time ago...the day started out with a longer than usual journey to sch...took 852 (yes, its 852 AGAIN..and pls do not remind me abt my eventful journey to sch on thursday) but this time i took it frm bukit batok...haha...

e performance started out wif e ACES DAY workout...oh my i cant help but say its darn RETARDED!...i mean how many ppl were seriously working out?!...wad a waste of time and effort man...then we were allowed to change to wadever that best describes us?!...like wth?!!...look at e amt of ppl in their sec sch uniform?!...i mean mrs cheng will be very disappointed bah cos everyone believe its their sec sch tat best describes them and not njc...haiz...but the whole thing made me feel back at PAE..nostalgic...and do i rly look whiter in my bp uniform?...im quite surprised...but only after changing back to the bp uniform did i feel my confidence back with me...and how comfortable e uniform feels like..of course the uniform is now way smaller and shorter...

then, me and ben decided to leave njc during the changing period...b4 e performance starts, apparently jy,ts,ys and manyee had left already...so e two of us left by simply walking out of the main gate...with no one giving a damn abt us...haha..heys...sorry s06 tat i had left first..but i feel extremely indebted to my sec sch teachers esp when i didnt get to se my form teacher during speech day...i know u guys had prepared alot..esp those who were performing...but pls accept my apologies...

so, we reached bp at abt 945...haha...it was so funny tat those who knew us...esp the teachers were quite surprised to see me and ben in bp uniform...haha..it was an interesting adventure whr u can just blend into the crowd without anyone realising anything...then the new principal asked us to do a short video interview with e students...asking us y we were in our old uniform...i just hope tat it wont appear on national television...after looking for the teachers and having a long but fruitful conversation...we went to play vball...okay..fine maybe my vball skills are no whr near the others but im tryin alright...but tmr confirm blue black again...cos i got no fats to protect my hand!...muhaha=p

haiz...the whole time at bp was a nostalgic one...exactly 1 yr ago 4t2 had one of their most successful class events...our last teachers' day celebration...remember the song you raise me up?...rmb e dedication i made?...rmb the cake?...rmb e effort we had to put in just for tis event which was after our prelims?...how i miss the good old days at my second home, bukit panjang government high school...soaring together with heart and soul (towards excellence). i realised many ppl had changed alot...ppl like jiten was one of them tat i could not recognize...i guess its been a long time...and will be e last time i will be back at e tech whye campus...

after tat a long time at bp, we went for lunch...apparently cos there were not enuf seats at subway...only me and ben ate subway...while the rest ate long john's since i was anti-fried food esp with a sore throat...well we had not had a meal with each other for a long long time so i guess there was quite alot to talk abt...maybe i just had too many things to say and will nvr run out of topics...haha...oh...and for the first time i ate a foot-long sub...its bloody huge and had trouble finish it in e end...haha...

after lunch, me,ben,jy and ber then went to jj hse to play mahjong...and we were successful teachers in teaching ben who was playin for e first time...well...he won e first game so tat means he had plenty of beginners luck...haha. After being removed from e world of mahjong for such a long time...i realise my skills were not rusty yet...at least i had the most wins tat is...whees...i had alot of luck today as any tile i needed it just appeared in my hand..i won with a zi mo 3 times leh...and guess wad my big mouth did me no good durin the whole game which lasted till 8 plus...revealed too many things...with jy absorbing like a sponge as usual...haha...thxs jj for loaning ur hme to us...haha

the day then ended with dinner at BPP and a long journey home on 171. haiz, miss e days where i took 171 home after lunch at BPP with u guys... today was a day of fun, joy, nostalgia and maybe even sorrow...time flies and soon promos will be here...tat means today wld be the last day tat i can slack...when will we frens meet again?...in the not so near future, perhaps...i will rmb today...i will...;)

going running?!

2008-08-23T21:05:00.002+08:00

yeah...took 7 long hours to finish my econs VA...haha...feel so relaxed after finishing it...although i tink i took a darn long time...haha...there still so many things to do...and ARGH!...harmoc performance on monday??!...starting to get slightly nervous...dun ask me why...maybe its my first time performing in public bah...haha...considering tat i nvr go for the previous concert...

suddenly got the urge to go run tmr morning...must be the olympics...haha...maybe i will just go run tmr...

maths consol

2008-08-22T22:07:00.002+08:00

i'm starting to feel e stress and pressure...oh my i shld start mugging for promos man...but i cant seem to finish my work...how to mug?!...plus, after going my math consol...i realise tat i forgot how to do differentiation!...OMGs!..so i tink its quite useful...not tat i was listening in the first place...haha...yays...today's the last harmoc practice..and nxt monday's the performance...JIAYOUS harmoc! WE CAN DO IT!...haha...argh...so slpy...can someone tell me how to do my econs VA?!...so pissed off by it...haha

i got e last laugh

2008-08-21T21:36:00.002+08:00

darn...looks like im sinking deeper...distracted during chem SPA...couldnt concentrate...damn!...argh!

stupidity...

2008-08-20T21:58:00.000+08:00

stupidity...

econs lecture

2008-08-15T22:44:00.002+08:00

sianzz....today's econs lecture was seriously not a very fun lesson...SO DARN MALU LAH!...wahlau eh...i was being so kind as to raise my hand up to ask for more of the qn paper for the class and s12 who were behind us...then when some guy from another class attempted to pass me the wkshts, i was back facing him so i didnt know...then mrs liu had to call my name out in the whole LT1...omg! i still feeling super malu lar...argh...LT1 leh?!...tats quite a significant number of classes liao okay...grr...malu...my day sucks!...
concentration-1%, fatigue-30%, distraction-69%

突然累了。。。真想放弃。。。

2008-08-14T21:52:00.001+08:00

突然累了。。。真想放弃。。。
已对读书没兴趣。。。

control...

2008-08-10T23:14:00.002+08:00

Silvesta! Get a hold of yourself!...dun let yourself sink too deep!...you wont want to experience a deja vu of wad happen two years ago!...CONTROL!

distracted...

2008-08-09T22:53:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 43th BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!
i must be proud of my nation, so, here's a congratulations to the SINGAPORE!

ytd's nj NDC was just boring and a waste of resources...i mean apart from the comical performance put up by the respective houses...the whole programme was quite a waste of time... and i seriously cannot understand why they want to give us the package of small items...i mean how many ppl actually used or brought home those stuff?!...spare a thought for the environment man...plus nj's already short on $$ lar...so pls dun waste it!...think twice before u give us such stuff man...imagine the amt of harmful gases released in the production and destruction of these goods...
so after the performance junyang and ben came to my place...we actually wanted to watch a movie but most of the good seats were filled...so they came to play!...on my Wii tat is...i was like whining thoughout the day tat i only had 1 controller...so any other wii players out there?!...i want to try multiplayer leh!...grr
in the evening, went for the ND dinner at the hardcourt...the food was not bad...just tat becos it was conducted at the hardcourt the 'climate' was horrid!...haha...shall post some pics when my SD card slot is working...stupid laptop...argh!

haiz...im being so distracted today...argh!,,,someone pls save me from this distraction tats abt to spiral out of control!...
over the past two days i have been thinking abt one thing...i shld keep my mouth shut. I have been leaking too many secrets from my mouth...if they were my own deep dark secrets i only have myself to blame, but im hereby extend my apologies to those ppls whose secrets i have not been able to keep tight-lipped about...i am truly sorry. My big mouth aint doing myself much good either...am i truly too sarcastic?...for those whom i offended i apologise again, maybe i had been to dense to detect when i have crossed the line...i would try to shut up from now on but i hope e ppl who i have offended would understand tat i did not mean to offend u, i may have been trying to entertain myself at e expense of ppl's feelings...pls accept my sincere apologies...thank you!

七夕节

2008-08-07T23:18:00.003+08:00

oh my oh my...there's still one hour left and i realise today is 七夕 or chinese valentine's day...its just surprising tat this yr...no one said anything or breathe a word abt it...this is surprising man...
here's an extract of the story i got from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Qi_Xi

In late summer, the stars Altair and Vega are high in the night sky, and the Chinese tell the following love story, of which there are many variations:
牛郎, the star Altair, happens across seven fairy sisters bathing in a lake. Encouraged by his mischievous companion the ox, he steals their clothes and waits to see what will happen. The fairy sisters elect the youngest and most beautiful sister 织女, the star Vega to retrieve their clothing. She does so, but since Niulang has seen her naked, she must agree to his request for marriage. She proves to be a wonderful wife, and Niulang a good husband. They lived happily and had two children. But the Goddess of Heaven (in some versions Zhinü's mother) finds out that a mortal has married one of the fairy girls and is furious. Down on Earth, Niulang is very upset learning that his wife is gone. Suddenly, his cow begins to talk telling him that if he kills him and puts on his hide, he will be able to go up to Heaven to find his wife. With tears flowing, he killed the cow, put on the skin and carrying his two children with him and off he went to Heaven to find Zhinü. The Goddess found out he had come and was very angry. Taking out her hairpin, the Goddess scratches a wide river in the sky to separate the two lovers forever (thus forming the Milky Way, which separates Altair and Vega).
Zhinü must sit forever on one side of the river, sadly weaving on her loom, while Niulang watches her from afar and takes care of their two children.
But once a year all the magpies in the world take pity on them and fly up into heaven to form a bridge, 鵲橋, so the lovers may be together for a single night, the seventh night of the seventh moon.
It is said that if it rains on the night of Qi Xi, they are the tears of Niulang and Zhinü crying at the misery of their life.

Haha...hopes everyone will gain a better understanding of this chinese fable...:p

100th!!

2008-08-06T20:36:00.002+08:00

woohoos....this the e 100th post of this blog!....haha...which simply proves one thing...im not a very active blogger....haha...took two long yrs to reach 100 leh!....this is just lag man...haha...oh this 100th...I WANT TO COMPLAIN!!!....this is seriously frustrating lar and i hope SMRT would take note!...i was on 980 to sch today, not to mention tat the bus was already late in the first place, it BROKE DOWN early in the morning!...aren't engineers suppose to check that buses are in working condition b4 the bus goes into service?!...plus the bus is one of the newer ones...if the bus was those aged ones tat had been aroung since the 1980s i could understand..but the younger newer bus broke down?!...wth!...and the bus captain could have told us earlier tat the bus is faulty so tat i could have swop to a service tat would have brought me to macritchie when it was right behind m my bus!...i seriously had enough of SMRT liao leh...last wk on thursday i waited 20 mins for 2 services tat i had to cab down to sch instead?!...not to mention tat some of the buses are in horrid condition..leaking or non-functional air con...overhead parts of the buses hanging in mid air?!...its just atrocious...if not for my busy schedule i would have written tons of complain letters to SMRT already!...haiz...i pity residents stayin in areas served by SMRT..haiz...never mind enuf of complaining...
oh lord, im sorry i had sinned today for sleeping from 430 to 730...i know i shld be trying to clear my homework...i truely sorry and apologise for my behaviour but im just too tired...if only i had 72 hours a day...
should have made use of the opportunity...:(

Post 99

2008-08-03T12:51:00.002+08:00

oh my oh my...this is my 99th post!...haha...fine fine...im lame beyond lame...(eh...y does this sound familiar..nvr mind)... yes yes i know i shouldnt be wasting my time online i shld be writing my WR...but im just too lazy lar...haiz...the past wk had been nuts...so was the wkend up to now...argh...i so wanna play on my wii...its been a long time since i last played...argh...stupid nj...frustrating!!!...recently got really hooked onto 王子的新衣 by 萧敬腾...its a very nice song...everyone shld go listen...finally found a singer to match the 'holy' jay chou....

haiz...the night b4 i was getting bored and went onto youtube and found our bp graduation video...haiz..brought back so much memories...which brings me to speech day 2 wks ago...i rmb the speech made by shuying...i was surprised she mentioned the korea trip...i bet it gave the four of us bpians many memories...also i rmb the statements tat were shown on the screen tat i felt very meaningful(thxs nicholas,i copied this from ur blog)

1. People are illogical, unreasonable, and self-centered.
Love them anyway.
2. If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish ulterior motives.
Do good anyway.
3. If you are successful, you will win false friends and true enemies.
Succeed anyway.
4. The good you do today will be forgotten tomorrow.
Do good anyway.
5. Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable.
Be honest and frank anyway.
6. The biggest men and women with the biggest ideas can be shot down by the smallest men and women with the smallest minds.
Think big anyway.
7. People favor underdogs but follow only top dogs.
Fight for a few underdogs anyway.
8. What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight.
Build anyway.
9. People really need help but may attack you if you do help them.
Help people anyway.
10. Give the world the best you have and you'll get kicked in the teeth.
Give the world the best you have anyway.
-- Kent M. Keith, 1968

meaningful eh?...i tot so too...:)

the two who stole it

2008-08-01T21:07:00.002+08:00

i amazed at myself, i nvr tot i would be such a person. i tink there is sth wrong with my values..why is this happening?...i cannot meddle in this anymore...i will not let another suffer the same fate...i will not!..

harmoc handover...

2008-07-23T22:38:00.002+08:00

whoas...i tink i rly let the blog rot quite a bit...haiz...haha like alwaes eh?!...haha...
initially i finally decided to blog after such a long time to grumble and tell the whole world my dissatisfaction but i have decided not to...as many ppl say only time will tell and i shld give ppl the time they need to prove themselves useful and capable...
but then again i cannot take discrimination...lets put it in a more discreet manner...if Singapore employs a housing or governance scheme tat ensures tat there's a equal proportion of races compared to their population size...i dun see why the same theory cannot apply in sch, why cant there be an equal distribution of resources and leadership btw different grps of people?!...its just puzzling rly?!...aren't Singaporeans suppose to be civilised and show acceptance to everyone and not only their small little community or group?...somehow i tink Singaporeans arent rly civilised after all, since they dun even show basic social etiquette on a public bus! so, maybe i shouldnt be appalled at all when the small little grp i belong to is being marginalised and discriminated against?!...but who will ever listen?!...with great power comes corruption and unfairness...
it has been a long time since i was peeved over matters of this nature...the world may be an unfair place but i just cant accept this man...too bad i have no means to instill change and make the world a fairer place, but i hope i can influence the person with the power to change things for the better...

okay, with that i shall move to the handover...haiz...the J2s are now gone from the face of harmoc practices already?!...i wonder when would we have the chance to play the harmoc together again?!...6 mths ltr?!..haiz...it just depressing tat good things come to an end so quickly...but tats how things in life goes...good things NEVER lasts...and when the heavens decide to give u sth good, rest assured they will take sth back from u too...okay enuf of this philosophical stuff...haiz no more seniors to teach me how to play the harmoc...haiz i still rmb the first day when i got my harmoc...had one-on-one tuition with peiyee and jamie...but even with their help...being quite a music-retard i took a long time to even learn the basics...forgive me if i had irritated yall...im genetically not adept at playing musical instruments...haha...i know i still have a lot to learn but i will try my best...i will...

the departure of the J2s had reminded me of all the departures of frens over my short 16 yrs on earth...my admiralty primary school classmates, its been a long time since i last saw most of you guys, lets call for a gathering soon, okay?!...
bukit panjang friends...i guess we would have seen the last of most ppl on speech day...for those who chose not to return on speech day im just disappointed that u dun have anything significant tat u wish to cherish by going back to my 2nd home,bpghs...
njcians...to tink tat we would say goodbye to one another as soon as next yr...its just surprising tat this two yrs at nj has only 16 mths left...i hope we can build long lasting frenship even in this short period of time...s06!...grnlnk!..harmoc!

[ ‘要拥有彩虹，就必须先忍受下雨’]

yays...CT ends

2008-06-27T19:33:00.006+08:00

time really passes quickly when one is havin fun and being tortured...it has been two wks since i returned to hot and stuffy singapore...and so quickly common test is over?!...haha...common test was just madness...how is one going to study after being away from studies for more than 2 wks?!...haiz...i just hope i wont get too many Us?!...haha...miss the european continent alot man...the cheese...the pizza...the weather...the sights...and the excitement of seeing things for the first time in ur life....haiz...but now its back to the sad life of an njc-ian?!

Venice, Italy

Mt. Titlis, Lucerne, Switzerland

Cologne Gothic Church, Cologne, Germany

Lourve Museuem, Paris, France

Arc De Triomphe, Paris, France

Netherlands

2008-06-07T06:05:00.002+08:00

yoz, greetings from the netherlands...survived 9 days in europe already...maybe survived isnt much of a great word but mind u...europe is not tat a nice pllace as u think it is...switzerland and austria may be very very (and i mean it) nice and relaxing...italy and holland is a very scary and social unsafe place...plus things here are freaking expensive...toilets will cost u from S$1-2 and mcdonalds is like S$10 plus lar....super super expensive...haha...but finally in this airport hotel...there's FREE internet access....woohooo....finally...hahas...hope all is well in singapore...oh octavians...how was the preview?...i bet yall did very well...good luck for the actual performance!!...
adieos from amsterdam...

goodbyes

2008-05-29T19:37:00.001+08:00

Tatas Singapore...i will be back in two wks time...
Harmoc ppl...esp octavians jiayous for the concert!...i have faith that yall will definitely do very well..jiayous!!!...im sorry tat i cant go to concert with you guy/gals...but enjoy yourselves...i bet u will!...jiayous!!

it's my fault

2008-05-25T11:28:00.003+08:00

im sorry, i guess its wholly my fault. i should have told you much earlier. but im not tat good at expressing myself in words.
i dun know how many times i shld apologize just to relieve myself of some guilt.
i guess it was a mistake to go for the photoshoot. Rmb tat i had qualms abt going to the photoshoot in the first place, i was afraid tat things would happen. im rly rly sorry.
but i guess u were right, i shld clarify things before i leave on thursday. the thing is im not sure abt my own thoughts and feelings.
it could very well have been a mistake right from the start cos at tat pt. when i got to know u, it was my lowest pt i ever felt in nj. i felt extremely lonely in this new environment. i felt i couldnt fit into nj, apparently u were one the only ones arnd which i could talk to. somehow it could be possible tat i had mistaken this loneliness for sth else instead. but up till now im still unsure abt whether this is the bare facts. i asked a few close frens, they agreed tat it could likely be my immaturity tat i had made such a big mistake.
well, i guess it also my streak of muggerism tat i decided tat avoidance could be the best method. i fear my school work, i fear for my harmoc standards, i fear for the time i have with my family, i fear i cannot meet the expectations of my parents. my parents although dun rly lay out their expectations but i know they expect me to do well, esp after i went against their opinion of not being overtly invovled in cca. its fear tat i have to overcome. no doubt i having some respite now by finally getting used to this madly hectic lifestyle but i just cant afford to sacrifice yours and my time.
i rly rly sorry...i dun noe how i can make this up to you but i think its best we remain as frens so tat u can stop wasting your time on me...i dun deserve it in any way..im very very sorry..

fruitful wk...

2008-05-23T23:39:00.002+08:00

whoa...its been at least 3 wks since i last posted...haha...im finally starting to get use to nj life after being able to clear some amounts of homework...the past wk has been quite fruitful or sorts...manage to TRY to grasp differentiation and economies of scale...pw's moving along quite smoothly(though i feel im not contributing enuf), gp VA was not bad( at least i could finish it on time...wahaha)...and so was harmoc...whees...went for harmoc dinner on two consecutive fridays...last friday was at adam road food centre...haha...realise octave got so many wierdos including me!...haha...today was another dinner...tok-ed so much crap lar...apparently got suan-ed throughout lar...haiz...sorry 08s06 i didnt go for class dinner cos i agreed to go the dinner with octavians first...my apologies!...
for GC, apparently, i recieved my set of strengths and weaknesses...haha im surprised i didnt get hot-tempered...it was quite amazing cos its one of my main flaws...haha but i felt tat a few are quite true: 1) complains alot- oops im sorry if i complained too much...knew abt it eons ago but its too much of a bad habit bah...not easy to change...2) sarcastic- haha...i believe i am but im sorry if i angered anyone...its just me bah...cos i tink sometimes it will be good if everyone have a good laugh :P...
haiz..but my sore eyes and throat problem seems to be acting up again...sianz lor...leaving the country soon leh...cannot have this kind of problem de...argh!
harmoc concert coming...jiayous to all harmoc members!...good luck!!

honesty...the best policy?!

sorry i flared...

2008-05-04T16:15:00.002+08:00

well...flared up ytd again...sian...sorry wanqing...u happen to be at the wrong place at the wrong time...sorry...somehow the word anger has been rewritten into my dictionary...i always tot i had erased it a yr or two ago...must be sleep again lar...since i slept till noon today...desperately need to find a source to direct all these flames...who wants to volunteer to be burnt?! haha

messed up!

2008-04-23T21:24:00.001+08:00

i dun care...i dun know...i dun want to care...i dun want to know...those around me beware...make one wrong move and i may blow my top...dun say i didnt give warning...

going nuts...

2008-04-19T13:24:00.005+08:00

i cant believe im sayin this but the past wk seemed to be more stressful than the o lvl period...there's so much to do and so little time...it's like the teachers thinkin we hav 48 hrs a day lar..slp only 4 hours for 4 days in the past 5 days...tat y i only woke up like 2 hrs ago...there's still so much tutorials to do...but i seriously dun hav e mood to...i just one to lie on my bed and snooze...in short...im mentally...physically and emotionally stressed out...i seem to enjoy my time alone now...silence is golden for me now...

i miss bp...i miss 4t2...i miss e teachers...i miss the cozinest...i miss e kampong feel...but all tat is past...hope i'll enjoy njc...

guilty

2008-04-04T23:33:00.002+08:00

okay...im feeling damn guilty now...but i think i did the right thing...im rly rly sorry...i dun noe how many times i must say sorry...at least it lessens my guilt...i shouldnt be selfish...i dun wish to end up neglecting u...lets give each other some time bah...to straighten our thoughts...or at least mine tats for sure...
the above was wad i felt b4 ur sarcastic line...it seems like it rly affected me big-time and i mean it...too pissed to continue...i shall leave it here for tonight...

anxiety attack...

2008-03-29T23:23:00.002+08:00

the past wk was just horrendous...i believe i suffered anxiety attack on tues and wednesday...started feeling cold...then nauseous then diarrhoea then feeling hot again...its a very horrible feeling...i tot i would not survive my journey to njc...i hope it wont strike me again...its just scary....very freaky...wad e hell is happening?!...argh!...

chocolates

2008-03-20T22:46:00.003+08:00

hmm...is it true tat i dun look like an emo person??...haha cos i've been hearing from ppl tat this very blog dun seem to belong to me...apparently cos its too emo liao...muhaha...but the me u r seeing here is more of e real me...okay maybe i may sound all so saintly or sth but i tink no matter who we are or how bad our mood is...we shouldnt display it all so publicly or anything...well, i simply see no point to do so...to put it blantly, if u r not happy or buay song, dun show it or u will affect e ppl arnd u too...care for others too lar...dun pass ur misery to others oso lar...or at least talk to some fren abt it...u will feel very good after tat...i cant stand it when one emos 'overboard' in sch...selfish would be e correct descriptive word!...haha...so i always tot a blog would be a good place to be totally honest and even emo... oh plus chocolates are rly effective in making one happy..haha..i experimented it today...haha

i need a person to confide in...nvr seem to find such a person as sleepless nights look set to return...
-a sense of deja vu-

torn apart...

2008-03-18T20:01:00.003+08:00

somehow been feeling emo for the whole month already...the month had been quite stressful for me mentally...e big problem is i cant pinpoint where this source of depression is coming from...could it just be because of me not being able to move on from bp life mar? Or is it my inability to decide on a glass of lipton, dragonwell or palmorosa? i dun noe lar...very confused liao...haiz...enrichment wk?..a wk of change for e good or bad??...only time will tell...

精神错乱。。。心不在焉。。。如何是好？！

CNY holis...

2008-02-15T21:27:00.004+08:00

okay...its been a long time since i last posted...so maybe i shld sum up everything tat has happened in the past 0.5 mths...haha

5/2/2008: went to crash ajc...haiz...from tat pt. on..i totally believed nj was so much better...haha...no offence but aj's like super old...haha...canteen damn small summore...whr got space?!...haha...but no doubt aj's super near from my hse...but well u have to make sacrifices... then went wif zp, sx,cw,jy and elvin to nyaa...yea...trying out for nyaa silver...but now like abit hard liao...cos dun even know whether got camp or not?!...sian...how?!...

6/2/2008: whoa...this is one mad day man...first thing in e morning went to NJC for celebrations...couldnt stand how boring e celebrations were and just left at 930 for bpghs with sx,jy,and elvin...but wth...when we reach bp e celebrations already over...super sian...haha...but well saw a couple of teachers...talked awhile...after tat went to meet jiajie...eileen...jordan...bernard...and sum others...celebrated eileen's b'dae....blah blah blah...then had to rush off quickly again...haiz...so disappointed tat i couldnt stay longer...cos it will be quite difficult to gather all these ppl again liao...but i shall remain optimistic

Chinese New Year: yups yups...angbao money has shrunk even though economy quite good last yr...maybe ppl scared recession or maybe just became more stingy...sian lor...yr-on-yr CNY becoming more and more sian...go ppl hse say happy new yr...take angpao...eat...sit..talk then say i too skinny blah blah blah...its like everyone share the same script like tat..haiz...gamble liao still lose money...but at least not too bad...only $3...haha...well after all its e intereaction btw relatives tat matters lar...after all we only see them once every yr...

12/02/2008: went for my first meet-the-people session at e RC with my cousin...well the CNY holidays kept quite alot of ppl at home tat is...haha...but well its a good eye-opener...plus can do CIP, and will look good on e portfolio...plus maybe can ask Dr Lim to write testimonial for me...muhaha....yippee...

Valentine's Day: Never like this day at all...especially when u are single...haix...keep seeing e happy couples celebrating e occasion...haix haix haix...为何我就没有这个福气呢? but i have moved on...i should have done this a long one yr ago...but after all it did make my bp life much more 'interesting' and 'depressing' at the same time...haiz....but wads past is past...
oh....btw...thanks everyone for the chocos and my angel and mortal...now i feel damn indebted to the ppl who gave me the stuff...but well i need to make a note tat its not my sch tradition to wish frens happy V'day...cos its only applicable for couples bah...haha...mixed sch is like tat de lar...

the same question returns to haunt me...have i truly made a right decision in stayin at NJ?...im beginning to have renewed doubts...i just cant seem to get used to this...im losing my self confidence...maybe i cant seem to click?!....i dun noe lar...haiz...hope to resolve this question quick...but how?!>.<

难以忘记初次见你,一双迷人的眼睛,在我脑海里,你的身影挥散不去...

emotional...

2008-02-01T22:17:00.000+08:00

emotional...the power of a song and strong impressions of the past...unbelievably strong...

yeah!!!

2008-01-25T12:38:00.000+08:00

finally got my results...yeah! 7A1s and l1r5=6....wahhahahah...i cannot believe it...haha....okay maybe u tink there's no big deal...but im thrilled as i didnt repeat e horrible history of psle...whr i did fabulous for prelims and screwed up e actual paper...haha
plus, the teachers like so 故意 one lor...5a1s/6a1s still dun have my name...7a1s first page oso dun have my name...i was like die liao...all dun have my name...8a1s only got like 2 ppl leh...but heng ar...new page still 7a1s...and finally first name was mine....yeah!!...haha...happy happy happy....

******

went to play pool in the afternoon with zhan peng, jy,bernard,ghim siang,zhikai,yc and clarence...hahha...my first time was quite fun...manage to win a few rounds due to some luck...or maybe some unluckiness by zp...haha...he keep hitting the black 8 ball...hahathen tried psycho-ing zp to njc...it didnt rly work though...haha...life after results seems fantastic...haha

results tmr...

2008-01-23T17:58:00.000+08:00

let me make a correction...i tink im starting to enjoy being wif 08s06...haha even though i had spent 1 wk less with them since i was so darn sick...somehow i tink i passed it to many ppl...im so sorry...haha...but well today i was already receiving my retribution...haha...the dumb game during CAAL lesson was "fun" enuf...okay let me clarify hor...having fair skin...dimples and rosy cheeks are things i can't change...hence i didn't do anything to make myself like tat hor...also if u have seen me pout or doing some serious "unglam" things...its for entertainment sake lar...or else yall would have lesser chances of laughing...

tmr's will be the day of jubilation/suicidal...i hope 08s06 wld still be together aft tmr's revealation...haiz...the stupid butterflies un-corroded by gastric juices have already found their way to my stomach already....good luck to everyone...god bless!

tmr i suppose wld be the last day that i will ever catxh a glimpse of you...somehow when i heard the news of supposed devastation...i felt nothing...serious...

woohoo!

2008-01-12T10:25:00.000+08:00

YEAH!...orientation finally draws to a close...true enuf im happy and sad at e same time..happy tat things in orientation which i dislike are finally gone...esp. forfeits...hahah...anyway i totally enjoyed myself the whole time ytd...early morning was the war games...it was indeed fun getting all wet and smacking water bombs at frens and OGLs...haha...oh and i finally saw wif my own eyes the wierd tradition of Cat. High ppl...they were very into tau-pok and pulling ppl's shorts down...which reminds me of how some girls were totally traumatised and screamed when shou jin's shorts were pulled down right to his ankles...haha...

******

in e afternoon it was my turn to be traumatised when my extremely 'cute' ez-link card photo was publicised within OG6...haha...they witnessed e dramatic transformation from a slightly bloated me to some refugee stayin teen...haha...

******

to be continued....

orientation ending

2008-01-10T20:49:00.000+08:00

08S06 is my new class at njc....somehow they kinda screwed up class planning cos i seemed to be one of the rare bpians without any company...plus there are only like 8 guys in class with 6 from Catholic High..its damn shit lar..the only consolation is im reunited with my 3 other primary sch classmates...seriously screwed lar...

******

finally orientation is ending tmr...happy or sad i rly dun noe...but good luck to me in surviving e long day tmr which ends at 10pm...sian...but somehow im looking forward to getting drenched during war games...haha...i pray tat everything will be smooth-sailing...may the almighty one be able to receive my electronic prayer...

njc

2008-01-02T20:31:00.000+08:00

a new school...a new environment...a new skin and a new address(relink: http://soulweaper.blogspot.com)...
i rly wonder whether i made a right choice in selecting njc...its like damn far from my place and the shortest travelling time up to now is a disgusting 50 minutes...haiz...PLUS...orientation lasts like 8 days lar...eeyer...i hate orientation programs lar...and then still got tat mass dance thingy...okay lar at least there's a slight bit of fun...but now i seriously conclude i got no musical/rhythmic or dancing talent of any sorts but lets hope i get a good partner when the OGs are reoganised...haha...haiz...miss the old bp environment...somehow it feels much more cosy, friendly and very much safer...call me over-sensitive or wadever..i just got e feeling of jeopardising my life or tat sorts...miss bukit panjang govt. high...not forgetting my workplace of 1 mth...lvl 4 txt dept of bbc popular...wish me luck in njc..adieos..

a change of heart...

2007-12-21T14:43:00.000+08:00

once again...fate is messing up my life..rmb only a wk ago when e meteor shower was on?? Rmb e wish tat was of significant importance tat i made? some how..i believe fate and i seem to have some kind of miscommunication..instead of blessing me with my wishlist, it gave me an alternative..one tat makes my once deeply rooted heart becomes detached and make me lose my peace in e pitch black darkness of e night...how could this have happened?!" no way this could have happened...never!", i told myself...it didnt work..
20 December 2007...a date i would remember for a long long time...it must have been your air of elegance..your gentleness..your sweet voice tat attracted my intense attention and concentration...may a shooting star come by tonight so i can amend my wish for fate had made myself forgotten one and picked up another.........

P.S. the above two paragraphs are mostly fictional..if u happen to not believe my words...you better do...

********

杨宗纬/张惠妹-人质

我和你啊存在一种危险关系
彼此挟持这另一部分的自己
本以为这完整了爱的定义
那就乖乖的守护着你
相爱变成猜忌怀疑的烂游戏
规则是要憋着呼吸越靠越近

但你的温柔是我唯一沉溺
你是爱我的就不怕有缝隙
在我心上用力的开一枪
让一切归零在这声巨响
如果爱是说什么都不能放
我不挣扎反正我也没差

人质在这一刻得到释放
相爱的纯粹落得如此下场
你满意吗我们都别说谎。。。

geminids...

2007-12-15T17:14:00.000+08:00

my throat felt parched...e cool sea breeze blew endlessly against my cheeks, all this while being as soft and gentle it could be...the silence of e night was puctured by low flying aircraft carrying load full of joyous holiday makers...changi point beach felt like a place totally forgotten by people where nature was in its full glory and couples looking for a quiet escapade from bustling city life..

sitting on the hard cold concrete bench i closed my eyes and shut out all tat was happening around me..as the waves rushed up against the shore regularly...i went into deep thought...this short peaceful moment tat i had was to affect my wish ltr in e night...

it was 3am..i sat down on e soft cool sandy beach and laid back..it was a long wait but e geminids meteor shower did not fail my expectations...my first meteor aka a shooting star was a large bright fireball...and soon the numbers accumulated and i made a wish on No.5..a wish i hope would come true soon...but i doubt it wld ever happen..heart-wrenching pain occured as i made e wish..somehow i couldnt disappear as quickly as the meteor...

slowly,e total numbers reached No.12 and No.13 came 30mins ltr..somehow God prevented me from reaching No.14 easily..i missed 6 meteors in tat period of time as i lost concentration..but eventually a bright sparkling No.14 came..somehow God only wanted me and me only to spot it..no one else saw it...deep down i believe it was by fate tat only I was suppose to see No.14..it was e special one..

on last count, No.22 rounded off e night of endless waiting...these 22 'falling stars' were indeed a great sight and i dedicate every single one of them to tat special you deep down in e chambers of my heart...esp. the one i deemed special..

what a big mouth...

2007-11-22T20:57:00.000+08:00

it seems like being e person who speaks up for unjust, for rights and for change usually results in unwanted trouble...is it wrong to do so?...or should i just follow and integrate into e crowd?...maybe i should just shut up e next time round...save myself from agony...for e rest...u shall suffer then...i wash myself off such matters...pissed...

job found...

2007-11-17T22:09:00.000+08:00

finally found a job...will be working at popular bras basah branch startin from nov 26...txtbk department...haiz...i dun noe whether to cheer or to sulk...hmm...yes a job will definitely occupy my time and take my mind off certain matters but it will be exhausting and phsically demanding...hope i will survive...ytd after e stupid 30 min short pae briefing...it was totally dumb lar...went to the immigration authorities all the way at lavendar...snoozed while taking 960...wth lor take my passport also must wait 1h30mins and the whole process took less than 5 mins...damn pekcek lar...cld have used my time to do something more important...not my day man...
then, today my mum decided to clear out my toys from 'time immemorial'...aiya my old toys lar...brought back so much memories...after paking halfway thru i decided to make my self scarce...was starting to get kinda emotional...it just made me feel tat time waits for no man...and so quickly i hav matured so much...so much have changed including my handwriting...haiz...if only i could turn back the time and live the time where frustration and plentiful of disappointment was never tat significant...i miss the simple life...
it's us against the world,
you and me against them all...

o lvls gone...

2007-11-14T21:08:00.000+08:00

finally...after a long 1 mth of endless torture...mugging...and straining of my eyes tat resulted to conjuntivitis...e Os are finally over...JOY TO THE WORLD...christmas is coming too...haiz...2007 is almost over so quickly and next yr bp will no longer be my sch...but once a bpian, forever a bpian!...okay...enuf of tis crap...ytd i like most other bpians went to orchard to shop...well more like walk walk bah...haha...so me jiajie and jordan walkd from wisma to far east then all the way to esplanade park...厉害吧？after tat went home and totally slept like a log...peacefully also..no more exams leh!...haha...but then now tat e exams are over...life becomes so boring...ironic eh?...haiz...we are certainly a complicated species...too complicated for ourselves...
看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着,你的身影这么近我却抱不到…

prelim

2007-09-11T21:23:00.000+08:00

finally....results all back...and I AM SUPER SATISFIED!
here's how e report card looks like...
english: A1...dun ask me how..im very shocked too
HCL: A2...if eng is a shock...tis is just stunnin!
chem: A1
bio:A1
phy:B3...at least i maintained my standard...haha
a maths:C6...finally i passed...but it still just sucks!
e maths: A1...great improvement....jumped 6 grades...haha
combined: A1...literature was quite a surprise!...maybe is because wendy told us e qn
geography:A1
L1R5: 6!!!...OMG!..haha

if i let u go....

2007-09-04T15:49:00.000+08:00

for e ardent Westlife listeners...i believe u will know this song...it has been a near 7 years...

If I Let You Go

Day after day
Time pass away
And I just can't get you off my mind
Nobody knows I hide it inside
I keep on searching
But i can't find

The courage to show
To letting you know
I've never felt so much love before
And once again I'm thinkin' about
Takin' the easy way out

But if I let you go
I will never know
What my life would be
Holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me
Oh yeah
How will I know
If I let you go

Night after night
I hear myself say
Why can't this feeling just fade away
There's no one like you
You speak to my heart
It's such a shame
We're worlds apart
I'm too shy to ask
I'm too proud to lose
But sooner or later
I've gotta choose
And once again I'm thinkin' about
Takin' the easy way out

But if I let you go
I will never know
What my life would be
Holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me
Oh yeah
How will I know
If I let you go...

teachers day part 1

2007-08-31T16:01:00.000+08:00

i hereby declare today's teacher's day an absolute success!!!...quite endearing...touching...and fun at e same time...i can proudly say tat tis is e only time tat i felt so great to be part of 4T2 and of course e only time whr i feel e class has acted like a class...i sincerely hope and believe tat our class will from today on be united and frenships strengthened...

however, i wld oso like to thank the ppl workin behind e scenes to make tis a success
jiajie:e most impt person here...planned almost everything...wld say he's the hero of e day
raymond: mr hairy did quite a lot too...including walking e 2kg cake to school
jj,ray,ben,eileen: for buyin e presents on behalf of e class...
yeun see:for buyin such an exp present and of course e card and others
tingshien: for being the technology provided(music...blah blah blah)
zp,junzhi: for buyin essentials for e celebration
8 gals(dun noe hu exactly yall r):for makin e delicious cookies
elvin and other food providers: for providing food...duh!
finally, chuanwen:for being just there...haha...he did too much to be documented...

now..for e interesting part...the photos...it is likely i will release them in batches cos i took abt 100 over pics in just tat short span of time...

our beloved class of 2007...4T2!...yah yah yah...i know tis is lame... 7.18am: early morning preparations begin...music not done yet...oops...no joke...they r workin hard...haha7.22am: arrival of raymond--the cake is here!the cake is REVEALED!...i reserve my own face for my own consumption ar...7.25am:the big clear up begins

as the clear up continues...work by e *impt* personnel carries on...

after morning assembly: briefing goes on as we wait for mr chin's arrival...damn long wait man!
finally, he's here...time: 9.37am

tats it for today...e rest of the pics can be found HERE!

change is drastic

2007-08-03T17:29:00.000+08:00

i was browsing through some ppl's online photo albums today and i was stunned...not only myself but many of u ppl around me have changed....drastically!....talkin abt myself first...OMG!...i look so different lar!...i look slimmer...taller and my hair has changed so much recently(nvr knew i cld hav sth other than a "mushroom" cut!)...haiz...the change was so great i actually jumped when i saw myself...its like " 男大十八变"!...now i shall move on...it seems like every1 has matured quite alot...gals have a greater sense of femininity(erm...actually not all...haha)...guys look more manly(for some its just "beng"...haha)...it could be a part of growing up but i would attribute that to change in spectacles,hairstyle,figure(thin or plump),pimple and so on...many of us have changed these aspects in the recent mths or in e past yr...it does affect quite a lot...im serious! and examples of these are plentiful!

apart frm exterior looks...i believe a couple of us have matured emotionally and mentally...we are able to deal things wif more maturity and level-headedness...we look at matters from a different perspective and have a different mtd of solving matters...for example...i nvr knew i was able to deal with so many troubles at once...(tis may be kinda unlucky to hav so many probs also lar..haha)...

on the other side of e spectrum, some things nvr change...schoolwork doesnt...crappiness doesnt...and of course some feelings towards others( hatred included here....haha)...true enuf, there are more things tat change than remain the same....i believe tat there will be more interesting changes to come...and i sincerely hope it wld be good!...haha

cooling off period has ended and the flame relights with greater ferocity!

烦！

2007-07-29T16:41:00.000+08:00

人无远虑，必有近忧。
思念是一种病。。。

bad temper

2007-07-06T19:43:00.000+08:00

sorry abt the long disapperance from my tagboard....here r a couple of replies:
[jillian,benjamin]thanks for the consolation..very impt. to me...haah
[yeun]thxs for ur consolation...but no thxs for comin to laugh here wif fy...haha...erms...okay lets count down to prelims...count e no. of dates for me lar...haha
[zp]help to count down oso leh...mr chin JR....haha
okay tats abt it...cannot bother to reply e others...too long ago liao...
hmm...have been in a fiery mood recently...im not exactly sure y...but i have came up wif a few reasons:
1) Weather is so DAMN HOT!naturally, when the hot sun makes u damn sticky and sweaty...it is without a doubt tat one gets extremely angry...blame global warming if u want...so support LIVE EARTH!...haha
2)NOT ENUF SLP!...wah...i wonder wads wrong wif our education system man...cause ppl to stay up late to finish revising and homeworking...not enuf rest=not clear mind=not good mood=very hot temper
3)hmm...i shall be honest...i guess is the feeling of being lonely bah...i dun noe who i can confide in...everyone seems busy wif their own matters...there isnt much ppl i can fully place my trust in...even those tat i hav trusted in the past r not trustable in today's context...haiz...thus, with many things all crammed up in my minute brain and heart...it without doubt causes stress(like tat in rocks...haha...geog students will know...)and eventually resulting in the bad temper lor...
so you see...how can i not have a especially bad temper??...however, i currently still hav control of it...but wad happens over the next wk is of great importance...for it can bring me over the top...or finally return the original ME!...someone provide me with aid!!!haiz...but eventually i doubt i wld get it...

you hav reignited the flame in my heart...

condor heroes

2007-06-26T18:46:00.001+08:00

sorry been a long time since i updated...lazy to post while com was formatted...haiz...stpid virus...nvr mind...erm...shld be a long time since i next post...i guess everyone wld be very busy like mua...haha

歌曲：天下无双
歌手：张靓颖专辑：电视剧神雕侠侣主题

穿越红尘的悲欢惆怅
和你贴心的流浪
刺透遍野的青山和荒凉
有你的梦伴着花香飞翔
今生因你痴狂
此爱天下无双
剑的影子水的波光
只是过往是过往
今生因你痴狂
此爱天下无双
啊.....
如果还有贴心的流浪
枯萎了容颜难以忘
难遗忘……
very nice song..haha....go hear it...haha

bad to worse

2007-06-07T17:57:00.000+08:00

well...thxs for the concern from the few of u guys n gals...the first day of my actual holidays was indeed borin without a doubt...haiz...all tat homework...ARGH!...damn the teachers!
anyway, bon voyage and good luck to jiajie for ur journey at pulau ubin...haha
我不明白，一个人的心怎么可以同时容纳两个人。这样不会很烦，很乱，很不快乐吗？

ISP ends!!!

2007-06-06T19:54:00.000+08:00

finally ISP ends...and well the holidays "supposedly" starts now...but consider the 8848 um thick of homework (used figuratively to refer to Mt. Everest...haha...learnt such crap from literature)...its jus me lar....many ppl hav already done quite a portion of work...but definitely not me...its jus tat i can seem to be motivated to work at all...many ppl told me go look for my motivation then...but it jus doesnt fall frm the sky for heaven's sake lar...u tink tat easy to get motivated meh?...been facin quite a couple of problems lately...to an extent tat i hav had problems gettin to slp(not as bad as someone else though)...to be exact these probs hav made me lose confidence in going about doing daily stuff...which itself is another problem...family problems...affairs of the heart...schooling...lack of confidence and motivation...tat is already a handful to deal wif...life would be perfect if only these probs were absent...haiz...

holis again

2007-05-29T20:00:00.000+08:00

well...the holidays finally came...aft a horrible MYE results...shall not elaborate further about it..too depressin to note...well today was the 1st day of ISP and indeed it was as bad as i predicted...totally normal school lessons lar...boring leh....xcept bio whr we were taught "how" to make bread...however i managed to pass the day without much of a scare...well actually there was a scare...almost came close to getting "killed"...anyway...been feelin rather wierd lately....must be the bacteria tats got me all sick...been feelin the need to talk to someone lately abt my thoughts....and well givin solutions to my probs...but haven found such a person yet...or as a matter of fact does such a person exist? argh....i hope so...so now comes the advertisement...anyone who tinks u r cut out for such a job? pls feel free to approach me....haha....interviews REQUIRED!

exams r over!

2007-05-13T20:27:00.000+08:00

finally the exams r over...though it seems like its a rather late time to say so...haha...been enjoyin post exam life these couple of days...well but we should not over-relax ourselves...after all the Os r not over yet...hmm...but i shall not give a damn abt it for e time being..MUHAHA...got two papers back...both wif fairly satisfiable grades...hmm...caught spider-man 3 on friday nite wif a couple of frens at the Cathay...not a bad movie...but too draggy as a matter of fact....but still quite ordinary...not as stunning as e first two...
going to start normal sch days frm tmr...ccas r oso restartin which is totally lame...god...even as exams r over i dun feel exactly happy...i wonder y....maybe there isnt a aim in life bah...
and for those who were askin abt some girl which i was claimed to take a likin for in L1 is a total crap comin from the mouths of XIONG YISHUN...pls lar ppl...the last person/animal on EARTH tat i wld tell such stuff to is yishun...so it was jus a total lame shit frm him...haha...and tats abt it...and rest assured tat the person is not in L1...cos i dun noe much ppl frm tat class...muhaha...

lala land

2007-04-26T17:48:00.000+08:00

lalalalallalalallalalalallalalalalalalallalalalalalalalallalala.......been in great mood recently though haven been doing great in the recent exams...hahaa....lalalalallalalalalallalalalalalalala

crossroads...

2007-04-10T18:04:00.000+08:00

tis is really dumb...now i find myself at crossroads...and a decision even though might not be a great decision in my life...it is still sth i hav to decide on and quick. y hav things moved so quickly...it seems lke another jack-out-of the box has jus sprung out in front of me again...hmm...i jus seem to be able to make a decision...if only i could turn time back for slightly more than half a year...things wld be just fine and so much simpler...hmm...jiayou to myself for tmr's comp!

歌曲：非你莫属
歌手：TANK

你知道吗?
我很喜欢牵着你的手的感觉
发生什么样子我好希望再来一次
懂得让我微笑的人
再没有谁比你有天份
轻易闯进我的心门
明天的美梦你完成
整个宇宙
浩瀚无边的尽头
每颗渺小星球
全都绕着你走
爱我非你莫属
我只愿守护
由你给我的幸福
爱我非你莫属
也许会笑着哭
但那人是你所以
不怕苦
OOOH
爱我非你莫属
我只愿守护
由你给我的幸福
爱我非你莫属
也许会笑着哭
但那人是你所以
不怕苦
那人是你所以
不怕苦
OO
不怕苦

emo...

2007-04-06T22:19:00.000+08:00

been very busy tis wk...VJC science quiz trainin almost every other day...all on A level stuff...i tink A can stand for alien and AH-HELP-ME!...stupid lar...then last wed got the ACJC geog quiz...we real noob lor cannot even go into finals...i got only a measly 23/30 for the preliminaries...then nxt wk got like 4 tests lar...sososoosos BUSY!...HELP!...

emo...the new word on the block...nvr new wad i could use to describe myself..now i noe...its emo...my heart is cryin...bleedin non-stop...could u, the substitute clog up the hole from which the blood is flowin out frm?...nvr mind, i doubt it will evr happen...let the free-flowin tap do its work bah...haha...emo...emo...emo...(NOT ELMO!)

confused

2007-03-29T18:10:00.000+08:00

confused. y hav i developed such an emotion?...y hav things changed so quickly?...so fast...or is such a feelin just to fill up tat emptiness?...are u a substitute to fill that gap left behind?...but then if u r not a substitute, then y do i still feel tat piece of awkwardness still present?

a series of rhetorical questions tat i ask myself...life is full of questions...

short...

2007-03-17T16:36:00.000+08:00

hmm...tis morning there was a documentay on channel newsasia...it was titled 'short'...so well u can guess tat it was discussing issues related to height...especially ppl hu were short...and well wad it said was very true...esp since i was only 145cm abt 3,5yrs ago...but now i hav got rid of the problem since im 171cm...haha...
but there were a couple of things tat i found very true....it stated tat short ppl are often treated as 'cute' but nvr 'cool'...very true indeed...in sec 1 when i was only appox. 150cm ppl kept sayin...'oh wad a cute boy...'...it was very common...and tat was it...the ppl hu were short were all the time referred as cute...
another thing i found very true was tall ppl always had the advantage....even most presidents in the USA were taller than average...and their election oppenents were always shorter...it is a sort of unfair world...
anothe thing of note is i wld like to call on everyone not to associate tall wif stong and short wif weak...tall ppl are nvr strong always...its a dumb conclusion...and short ppl may not always be weak too...they might even pack quite a punch...so ppl wif such conclusion pls go die...serious..cos im a victim of both conclusions....if u understand wad i mean...
and the ppl hu are short now...dun be too hard on yourself...sooner or ltr u will grow...even if it doesn't happen...be rest assured tat shorter ppl are always stronger mentally n emotionally...and remain calm when in bad situations due to the constant insults frm ppl...nvr mind u r not alone...even i hav been thru tis stage...and dun worry abt the girl problem if u r short...as long as u hav ur strengths...and sooner or ltr ppl will be attracted to them....so jiayou!...

school reopenin...

2007-03-16T11:53:00.000+08:00

i shall update aft some ppl complained....so...well here it is...school's reopenin soon...and i realised i haven been enjoyin the holis at all...im like so stuck at home doing homework...and just computin all day long...its seriously like being a dumb no-life...once again life sucks!...it seems like my 'speakin to myself' syndrome has come back to haunt me...been tinkin quite alot lately so maybe tats a root cause of the problem...i had straightened out my tinkin durin these few days of break...and well i decided tat maybe by lookin at things frm another angle...it wld be much better..one nvr knows when sth good might come up of sth bad...if u get wad i mean tat is..haha..to put it more simply..instead of being forlorn as suggested by elvin and his blog...maybe one shall jus move on...haha =p...well altho tis is kinda late...still i wld wish all a happy sch holidays..haha...hav a nice day...!:)

long time nvr update

2007-03-09T21:10:00.000+08:00

wa...long time nvr update liao..*removes algae and cobwebs*...been quite busy recently with schwrk and frens...and stuff like tat...wadever lar...BUT finally i CAN GET a well needed break...thou its only one wk lar...BUT BETTER THAN NTH!...haha...plan to do some revision durin the holidaes but it is unlikely tat i will do it lar...too sianz liao...haha...these weeks have been full of ups and downs but tats life lar...but at least now i can say tat im feelin much more happier recently with a change in certain things...haha...the rest is self-explanatory...lalalalalala

disappointment

2007-02-22T20:28:00.001+08:00

hmm...nth seems to be going right at all...and i mean IT...NTH at ALL!...but nvr mind...it is thru tis adversities tat i will learn frm...as the saying goes " success(refers to all kinds, not just career) is a journey not a destination" and maybe wad im going thru now is just a stumbling block in the way...then again tis may just be an optimistic approach...haha...disappointed...busy...moody...sleepy ME...haiz...life doesnt seem to be great...maybe i shld jus end it....haha...sianz

自恋

2007-02-16T20:02:00.000+08:00

歌名：自恋
曲：罗志祥词：李宗恩

说我爱你
从男人的心里
是最难表达诚实的秘密
说你愿意靠在我肩的你
是最难抗拒动人的回应
你扬起的嘴角给我爱情的动力
弯弯的眼睛
藏不住你孩子气
看着我在你眼里
眼神是如此肯定
那就是我一直等待着美丽
我承认我爱上你的美
你的脸和你的眉
让我面对自己
无法再自恋
OH BABY
我承认我爱上你的美
你让全宇宙失眠
让我爱到像流星一样的坠我才发现
歌词提供再兴
暧昧后得到的不是自恋
看你泛红的脸说出模糊的话语
我的心只听见你心里的回音
看着我在你眼睛
眼神是如此肯定
那就是我一直等待着美丽
我承认我爱上你的美
你的脸和你的眉让我面对自己
无法再自恋
OH BABY
我承认我爱上你的美
你让全宇宙失眠
让我爱到像流星一样的坠
我才发现睡不能睡
脑海都是你画面
OH 幸福帮我剪接你的笑脸
我承认我爱上你的美
你的美没有虚伪
让我爱你爱到忘了我是谁
OH BABY
因为你我爱上夜的黑
像搭着无人地铁
开向你为我设的专署路线
终于看见
我承认我爱上你的．．

a song tat i really like...maybe its becos of the lyrics bah...they can sort of relate lor...haha..esp the words in BRIGHT yellow...haha

summary of e wk

2007-02-15T21:20:00.000+08:00

okay here's my summary 4 tis busy wk...tat offically ends today cos tmr will no longer be busy...haha...
Sunday: my confirmation ceremony in church...YAYS frm tis day on im finally a confirmed catholic!...well the arch bishop supposedly was suppose to come but it seems he was busy...so an indian guy known as " monsignior Eugene Vas" came...wad a name!...haha
Monday: the start of a bad sch wk...first geog test...quarelled with mrs julia tan...makin the test an open bk one after she did so for 4P3...must hav gotten the monday blues...not in good mood at all..had the astro selection test...kena sai nvr study at all how u want me to do...!...hell...then saw andrew at Causeway Point...darn got dragged to accompany him to buy stuff 4 Valentine's Day...then considering my financial difficulties...i could only look on...haiz...
Tuesday: a day of smooth "seas"...but then as the sayin goes it is the calm b4 the storm!
Wednesday: Valentine's Day...definitely not a good day for me...i tink it needs no explanation...well...met a bastard on the train anyway...kena sai lor that son of a b**ch lar...valentine's day cannot study isit?!...brainless idiot!...wad a F**ker!...anyway HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY to ALL out there...
Thursday: 3 TESTS!!...supposedly suppose to hav 3 tests but well it seems like mrs poh forgot all abt e maths test...and we tested the mosquito ringtone on her too...it seems like almost all our teachers xcept mathew and wendy loh cannot hear...hmm so well...breezed thru chemistry but im prepared to go 4 mr chin's remedial lessons...sianz...

well but as the sayin goes again...tmr will be a better day...and i better hope its true...
446 125284, inversion is in order---another puzzle!

ONE!

2007-02-09T23:06:00.000+08:00

Numerical grade: one...alphabetical grade: A!....wahahah...its a miracle lor tat i managed to get an A1 for chinese!....

a very busy week...

2007-02-08T18:24:00.000+08:00

busy busy busy...tis wk has been rather hectic...3 tests...piles and piles of hmwrk....lots of meeting and talking wif ppl....grp wrks....church matters....haiz when am i going to get a break??...or will i nvr get one??....hmm...did my physics practical wif jw,hw and KUN today....haha...maybe i too suck or sth....took very long b4 i completed them...to be honest i had no idea wad i was doing...my mind was sort of wandering somewhr else....haha...hmm...tis wk was one wif rather mixed feelings too...it is very sad that my friend's mother had passed on...my condolences to you...but really we r all deeply saddened...thru tis we can see how short life is...we shld try to do everything while we can now and not delay wad we really want to do...the world's a stage whr the ppl r jus actors, and one an actor passes on...so does the character....haiz...enuf of the sad stuff...at least i managed to get over tis few days without much of a scare...tmr wil be a better day...but i really doubt tat lar since i gettin my chi 'o' lvl resullts tmr...then still got interview and confession!...sianz
Yishun,Bukit Panjang,Aljunied,Defu,Sembawang,Pandan....solve the equivocating puzzle!

PS

2007-02-02T21:54:00.001+08:00

im back frm an approx. 1 month break frm blogging...haiz...dun know y lar suddenly one to blog lor...haha...i noe its a lame reason but well...this is wad they call URGE!...haha...haiz...jus recovered frm mild gastric flu...two days ago was severe diarrhoea...now it has developed to constipation...siazzz...haha...well for those hu were unable to here my public speakin clearly abt a wk or two ago...here's the script...free to use 4 ur own public speakin too...:

Good afternoon teachers and fellow Bpians, before you think that I am going to hypnotize all of you or sing you all a lullaby so that you all can go to sleep and I can move away from the front of the hall without finishing my speech, I hope you could all give me an opportunity to hear about my views on BGR and premarital sex. Again, before your hormones start raging, running all around the place and think the wrong way, please do not think that I am here to encourage premarital sex and BGR, but to highlight to you the adverse effect both can cause onto you. Firstly, let’s turn our attention to BGR. For the benefit of those who still don’t know what BGR is, even though I doubt there is anyone who does not know, it basically means Boy-Girl relationships. I believe that seated in this very place, there are people experiencing or involved in BGR and if I could I would have welcomed you up here as a real-life example but unfortunately I can’t. Okay, let’s get into the main topic. I believe that we should not get ourselves involved in BGR even if the “temptation” is hard to resist. There are certain reasons for such a view. First, it is a distraction from your studies. In this year, when we are going to take our ‘O’ levels such distractions can prove to be very costly. For example, the guys you must bring your girlfriends out shopping along Orchard Road and the next thing you now is that she wants a denim skirt from Zara which costs $65. The next thing you know, your wallet feels so much emptier. Girls on the other hand you must spend time dolling up so that your boyfriend won’t get “seduced” by other girls. Thus, you have just wasted a lot of time that you can use to do some English homework which I think the teachers would be more than happy to see you do them. Secondly, talking about the cost of buying expensive clothing, you should add the other costs. For example, the SMSes you send to your partner. Even with 1000 free SMSes, I have heard friends who think a 1000 is not enough so they decided to send a 1000 more…then you have to add about an hour or two of phone conversation every night before you go to bed and “ta-da” you have a fantastic looking phone bill, burning a deep hole in your pocket. Next, let’s imagine a situation, both of you are sitting on the couch and then you two start to get closer and intimate and once again before you all start thinking about what is going happen next I shall go on to the second part of my speech, premarital sex. A Singapore Polytechnic survey of 800 youths released in yesterday’s news claims that 46% of youths think it is okay to have sex before marriage. However, is it really okay to do so? The modal answer would be NO and the only answer is also NO. Why is this so? First, the risks of diseases or infertility- these usually fatal diseases are spread through sexual relationships. And 'Safe’ sex does not offer 100% protection from these diseases and there is still a chance of pregnancy. So why risk contracting an STD, just for that moment of enjoyment? Secondly, the risk of damaged or lost relationships- We are emotionally wired to see sex as a commitment. However, when a casual sexual relationship ends, both parties are likely to experience guilt and pain of the unspoken promises that were broken. It is known that people break up after having sex, because boundaries were crossed that now make their relationship or friendship awkward. Lastly, The risk of damaging your future relationships or marriage- Have you ever thought of how you would have to struggle greatly with telling, or learning about, previous sexual encounters of your future partner when you are about to get married or are married? This knowledge causes stress on these relationships because of lack of trust and regret and well may cause an eventual collapse of a supposed “beautiful” relationship. In a nutshell, since BGR and premarital sex is detrimental, it is obvious that I would like to encourage all of you not to engage in them. However, if you are already engaged in, for example, BGR, and decided to break up, I thank you for making me feel so influential. But if you have decided to keep status quo, I hope to have still made an impression. With that, I will end my speech, thank you.

things change

2007-01-05T18:15:00.000+08:00

things have changed...to be exact lots of things have...the sec 2s...now sec 3s have started to don their trousers...it looks extremely odd to be honest and then thinking back...i was like them a mere 1 yr ago...haha...lots of teachers have left e sch...including mrs ee...mdm rozi...mr loh...mrs angeline wong etc...today mrs chan was saying in class..."throughout ur time in school...there must be ups and downs......"...then i thought to myself this could be very much the lowest point in my schooling yrs...not only in BP...well the reasons are simply....im not liking the process of this change...seriously there are many more things tat have changed...im not really close to ppl tat i have been close wif b4 and im starting to be close to ppl tat i nvr been...its really confusing...haha...and things haven been going my way this couple of weeks...i dun seem to be able to do anything well and everything seems to just go awry...and when i believe things can't get any worser...it does....GRRR...frustrating is the word to describe tis very situation...haiz...wif diagnostics coming up...how am i to deal wif all this S***? even though i may be all smiles in sch...but i seriously ain't in a good mood...so a word of advice...dun anger me if u can...

lastly, GOOD LUCK to ALL fellow Sec 4 students for ur diagnostics and 'o' lvls!!!...(i think this shld be 1 of the last posts b4 my posting takes a long break....)

school's reopening

2007-01-01T18:56:00.000+08:00

haiz...school reopening soon...i'm at an all time low...confused...frustrated...depressed...sianz...tats all i can say...haha

aft disappearing...

2006-12-30T12:11:00.000+08:00

damn planet earth for causing the taiwan quake and breaking undersea fiber optic cables...getting to this posting page took abt 5 mins...grrr...anyway...im finally updating after 12 days...haha...well...i didnt have any motivation to blog u see...to be honest i have sort of hit a rut...school's reopening and with diagnostics in wk 2...im already starting to feel stressed...haha...my depression seems to have taken a downhill...esp havin to go back to sucky teck whye ytd morning...i wonder whether i shouldnt have hesitated to ask for a transfer...haiz...

but ytd was not at all grim and gloomy....after cleaning the dust covered teck whye, the 202 guys,minus the malays(they had prayers so they had to forego the 'gathering') and minus yishun who got caught for his hair,... went to jiawei's hse...haha...started playin Fifa 06...disappointingly i got thrashed 5-0, 5-0 and 4-0 in 3 supposedly easy matches...it wasnt my day lar...i got 3 red cards and 4 penalties which i was unable to save in those 3 matches...

well the day got worse when my phone got 'phone-napped'...alvin somehow managed to snatch it from me...and soon my phone book was held hostage...the SWAT team(me) did not save the hostages in time...so two hostages fell victim to their prank calls and sms of unbelieveable content....once again...to the two of u all...i express my sincere apology and many gurantees tat i will protect my phone with my life next time...im very sorry...

after tat we went to play soccer at approx. the fifth storey of a multi-storey carpark...in sch uniform!!!...i noe it sounds stupid...to be honest it is...abt 30 mins later zai yeong kicked the ball off the ledge and the ball fell 5 storeys down and almost hit a blagadeshi foreign 'talent'...we made a run for it...haha...

then we went back and i left early to meet my parents at city hall...it felt strange with ppl staring at me...well i was still in my sch uniform...haha...went shopping....got myself 2 new JEEP(this company is part of DiamlerChrysler surprisingly!) shirts and a pair of Lee Cooper jeans...total cost : $ 59.90!! so cheap lor...because usual price would have been about $95.90...year end sales are crazy!

haiz...with sch reopening...im off to study....which i doubt i would be able to do so...no motivation to study lar....haha...anyway...Happy 2007 to ALL!!!

tripppppy

2006-12-18T14:22:00.000+08:00

as the sayin goes...a picture paints a thousand words...so i shall start posting abt my trip...simply with pictures and captions...haha..

my favourite shot type...out of the window shot...look closely and it is typhoon durian tat u are lookin at...

three pics from some of the views of the jiuzhagou scenic area...thses pics are only 3rd grade ones...the better ones are kept...haha...

....*let it snow let it snow let it snow....*

Welcome to Chengdu gian panda research and conservation base...haha...pandaland....woohoo...darn cute lor...okay tats all for today....stay tuned!

cheeena

2006-12-11T21:27:00.000+08:00

bloggin frm cheena....my hands are rather cold as i type tis....well...it winter so its expected....with only 10 mins....i cant say much but to be short and sweet...it means the breakfast and the toilet suxs...but wads more to expect....its cheena....chuanwen's country so its expected....anyway coming home soon on friday....dun miss me hor....haha...im sure no one will...haha...anyway pandas are really cute!

leaving...

2006-12-05T09:54:00.000+08:00

well...i changed back the blogskin due to negative feedback....haha...well...i finally completed all my hmwrk except chinese which is un-do-able...hahah....and yes finally the day is coming...im LEAVING tomoro...hahah...for all those out there dun miss me hor...or if anyone is crazy enuf to send me off in the early morning tomoro i dun mind too...haha...dots...lame...well got to go back my luggage...lets hope i hav time to blog frm the airport tomoro...ta-tas ppl!

missing you...

2006-12-02T18:20:00.000+08:00

my mind is in a confused state...thinking...wondering...missing u...haiz...
woohoo....4 days left...cant wait to get out of boring warm and rainy S'pore...

darn!

2006-12-01T22:14:00.000+08:00

damn it lar...b4 going 4 my holiday kena sore throat again!...darn it...acute tonsilitis as usual...!!!is like a deja vu of last yrs trip...last yr oso like tat...the day b4 i leaving kena sore throat and then doctor give me jab summore...dunno tis time will recover or not...damn it!...haiz but more worrying now is my grandma as she is in TTSH( tan tock seng hospitial...not teng ting shien's hse...haha...)...she got food poisoning i think....she up vomit down diarrhoea( translate directly to chinese and u will understand...)...haiz...hope she recovers soon...haha...oh ya anyone who's mobile is using M1 pls tell me...thank u!...haha...I AM SICK!...*sob*
6 days to go!....ahahhaha

westlife

2006-11-28T17:46:00.000+08:00

was packing my CDs today then i saw my westlife album...their first album and i listen to my favourite song again and again...hmm...it has been a long time since i heard tis song...it brings back quite a bit of memories too...=p

Artist: Westlife
Album: Westlife
Title: If I Let You Go

Day after day
Time pass away
And i just can't get you off my mind
Nobody knows
I hide it inside
I keep on searching but i can't find

The courage is to show
To letting you know
I've never felt so much love before
And once again i'm thinkin' about
Takin' the easy way out

But if i let you go
I will never know
What my life would be
Holding you close to me
Will i ever see
You smiling back at me
Oh yeah
How will i know
If i let you go

Night after night
I hear myself say
Why can't this feeling just fade away
There's no one like youyou speak to my heart
It's such a shame
We're worlds apart

I'm to shy to ask
I'm to proud to lose
But sooner or later i've gotta choose
And once again
I'm thinkin' about
Taking the easy way out

But if i let you go
I will never know
What my life would be
Holding you close to me
Will i ever see
You smiling back at me
Oh yeah
How will i know
If i let you go

if i let you go oh baby

oooh

once again i'm thinkin' about
Takin' the easy way out

But if i let you go
I will never know
What my life would be
Holding you close to me close to me
Will i ever see
You smiling back at me
Oh yeah
How will i know
If i let you go

But if i let you go
I will never know
Oh baby

Will i ever see
You smiling back at me
Oh yeah
How will i know
How will i know
If i let you go

8 days to the DAY!

grp outing...

2006-11-27T20:30:00.000+08:00

share my JOY!...i got a new new phone...nope the 2 "new"s u see is not an error...it was on purpose cos i went for an exchange cos the first phone battery got problem..only half day will flat liao even when the phone activity is low...i finally change the stupiddd Motorola V3x for a new Samsung D900 slide up phone...also known as the Samsung Ultra Slim edition 12.9..haha..so today actually i go for my group outing again..haha...i organise de...actually i was expecting the original five( me...ben...zhan peng...eileen...pei yi) and raymond...airu...junyang and bernard to come but only bernard came...but not bad liao lar...haha...so i went out at 1255...i knew i was going to be late liao...haha...as expected as i reached at 127 instead...coinceidentally the door which i was to exit the mrt was the door whr some 3p2 ppl were entering frm...those i could recognise were as usual the "wei brothers" and some others...then i met the rest...miraculously eileen was punctual and the first to arrive...wahha...then when everyone came we set off for vivo to watch movie...to our horror vivo was damn crowded worse than the malls at orchard...the queue for the movie was LONG!...im serious...u only see tis kind of queue when there are freebies to give...haha...so we decided not to watch anymore...we rather go eat...so we wandered and wandered and wandered arnd vivo lvl 2...after long walkin distances...we decided to go Plaza Sing...there we continued to wander all thanks to eileen who was picky over wat she wanted to eat...we decided to have food at Cafe Cartel...muhaha...

There...the only evidence of our meal...zhan peng ate the most ex one...haha...i took the jumbo chicken leg...eileen had some southern chicken thingy...then the rest had grilled chicken chop in texas sauce...mine was not bad though the rest kinda suck..i believe the rest was the instant kind...haha...i ate lots of butter and bread there since it was free flow...haha...must eat until gou4 ben1 mah...haha...and there the other 4 except me and ben attempted zhan peng's mini sudoku book...which had some setting errors in fact...so we paid the $87.60 in CASH!...haha...the person had fun counting...haha...i very kind liao lor change as much small notes to 10-dollar ones lor...see im a good person...after the food i went to look for my dad to exchange the faulty phone..so i left first and according to ben...not long after i left they went their own ways...see my importance now?!...haha...must learn to treasure me mah..haha..so it wasnt really an outing...it was more like grp lunch...haha...but if was fun and help me past my day real fast...only 9 days to GO!...woohooo

lit

2006-11-23T22:52:00.000+08:00

Literature homework is DIFFICULT!---NO KIDDING!

1 word

2006-11-22T23:51:00.000+08:00

wah...tis is one of the times im bloggin so late at night...haha...1 word to describe today: SIANZ!...well i have been stuck at home for the 3-4 wks of holis now...going out for sch or leisure at a measly 5 times i think...can count wif one hand lor...unless u have 4 fingers on one hand...however today is a day of accomplishment leh...i finally completed all my amaths paper aft 3 days and finished my wk 4 of physics...i tink 2day i did the most homework liao...haha...well since its late i will keep this short and sweet then...haha...14 days to departure out of S'pore...!!woohoo...tomoro will be a better day!

poem

2006-11-21T11:06:00.000+08:00

stumbled upon poems while surfin...so decided tat i shall be a literature person...

Please hug me,
Don't go the other way.
Please talk to me,
I have so much to say.

Please walk with me,
I just wanna know you're there.
Please hang out with me,
Just let me know you care.

Please call me,
I don't care if it's just once.
Please notice me,
Even if I am a dunce.

Please gaze at me,
Even if it's just a glance.
Please love me,
I just want one chance.

good eh?...written by Mindy Huang...

sianz...

2006-11-20T20:25:00.000+08:00

today my mood not very good...dun know leh...just feel very tired even if i didnt do much of a chore...haiz...sch is so much more fun than staying at home tokin to the com...haha...wahlau...my neighbour is smokin as i type tis...cant stand smokers lor...they dun y they want to puff their life away...cut my hair on friday now it looks super disgusting...haha...cannot go out tis wk cos my hair is too horrifyin!...haha...oh ya...jus now ben called me...he told me some "interesting" stuff...now im still reeling in shock...he has done lesser hmwrk than me...WOW!

" Proposed" Timetable for the remaining weeks of holidays
20/11-26/11: Complete the remaining 4 a maths papers
27/11: Proposed date to go out with u peeps...
28/11-5/12: Complete the 6 lit essays
6/12-15/12: Spending time on a mountain in china...dun miss me ppl!
16/12-17/12: Resting time and enjoyin the luxuries brought back from the mainland
18/12-20/12: Touch-up on the completed homework and finish wad is undone
21/12-23/12: Supposed Science Team camp at teck whye campus
24/12-2/1/2007: Mugging for diagonstic test...29/12 going back to teck whye for orientation
3/1/2007: School reopens...time to mug for the Os!

pigging

2006-11-17T12:05:00.000+08:00

Amazingly i have pigged two mornings away...ytd i woke up at 1020 and today at 1005...it is rather amazing for me as this usually happens only once in a year or so...and it has happen for 2 days in a row...this must be a sign...an ominous or lucky one is hard to tell...haha...now im still suffering from muscle aches after tat soccer game..and now an added injury i got ytd...i had a flu jab ytd mah...i advise all out there who are going abroad to get urself vaccinated for safety purposes especially those bound for china, the origin of the SARS virus though the vaccines dun work against SARS. haha...then later go raffles city to eat sushi teh...damn nice lor...the price was stunning...the food was stunning...the atmosphere was stunning...sounds familiar?...haha...then ate raw lobster...the lobster head was on the dish and it was still moving lor...OMG!...its like super disgusting but not bad taste lar...im a fan of sashimi...haha...okay abt 2-3 wks ago i did a sum up of impt ppl in 3T2...soon i will do one for the teachers...well since some of them are leaving or not teaching us anymore...haha...JOY TO THE WORLD: Great news!---i am 170cm tall already..woohooo...

leg pain

2006-11-15T19:54:00.000+08:00

argh...my legs are killing me...of course lar...play soccer with the 202 boys from 2+ to 5+...not pain then i not human liao...haha...yeah i scored leh!...1 out of the total of 40+ goals...very pathetic lar...but nvm at least i contributed...haha...oh ya b4 tat oso went for the ST camp meeting...going to be emcee and group IC leh...i feel so honoured...just crapping lar...dun mind me...haha...today will be a super short post so tats it...ppl pls tag...the tagboard abit STALE!...haha... 我想你的思念一点都不少

gst hike..

2006-11-14T20:44:00.000+08:00

hohoho...merry christmas!..okay lar kinda early but nvr mind... yeah...tomoro finally can leave home liao...haha...leave for sch...*ARGH!*...hahah tomoro they discussing about the Science team camp le...hope i can be IC...haha...lets have fun...haha...tomoro also going to play soccer with the 202 boys again at kun's hse...i wonder tis time whether kun will play...hope tomoro won't rain...haha...haiz...so sianz at home lor...can't wait to go overseas...as in not the type take mercedes go m'sia or sentosa tat type...is sit aeroplane...haha...but at least u all have mercs not bad le...haha...sian lor....government raising GST to 7% leh...how?... means tat i go food court eat also more expensive le leh...a plate of chicken rice of $4...now abt 8 cents more ex leh...not tat i cheapo but u add many 8 cents together become damn ex le...haha...okay nxt is the pathetic amt of hmwrk i did...

HMWRK DONE:
English:Vocab bk ex 18-24 and ex 76-77, TYS Dec 1981 Paper 2 and Dec 1982 Paper1 Part 1
E maths: 3 out of 3 school papers(P1 + P2) and chap 13 and 14 self study chapters
Chem: 2 sets of wkshts loaded on litespeed
Physics: 2 out of 4 weekly assignments and 2 out of 8 weekly journals

HMWRK LEFT:
Higher Chinese: Read the 4 famous bks and discuss sth on elms...which is still not there (Mr Shen is slackin!)
A maths: 6 out of 6 a maths papers (no motivation to do...someone motivate me!!)
Lit : 6 out of 6 unseen proses with full part As and part Bs...(wah...going to die writing this)
Physics: 2 out of 4 weekly assignment and 6 out of 8 weekly journals